My how time flies...on butterfly wings.
16 months since my last entry.
Alot of water has passed under this bridge. 
I am almost finished with the main focus of that time.  I promised my friend to make picture albums and send one to each of her daughters for her grand children to know their grand mother.
I chose to walk with a cancer patient through her journey with pancreatic cancer.  We became very attached and I grew to treasure her like the jewel she was. 
When she was diagnosed, the doctors gave her 4 to 6 months to live.  We, (Kathy, her boyfriend/care giver, sister, and me) fought it together for 23 months and 12 days.  Her will to live was astonding and she drug her heels in for every inch of the way.
Eighteen hours before her death, she asked for a hamburger..McDouble from McDonald's.  She ate it with relish and enjoyed the exoerience, all of the while knowing her stomach could not digest it and she would puke it up several hours later.
I know what I am feeling is normal, but I can not help, but feel a great loss, an empty spot in my heart.  I keep thinking if only the cancer had been caught earlier, if she had made every chemo treatment on time, and if only a thousand other things, she would have beaten the camcer.  But I really know that is not the case.  God's Will Be Done.
I think of her every day....